Pain
This is his dream. Felix is living his dream.
He has to remind himself of that, sometimes. The stress is high. Between the dance rehearsals, the music video shoots, the live shows, the interviews, the social media posts, the songwriting, the recording sessions, etc. it can get really hard at times. And those are just the tangible things. The things you can put on a schedule. There are also the less tangible things, like the expectations and industry standards. Maintaining your appearance. Maintaining positive interactions and professionalism with staff and the press and the fans. Not being involved in any scandals.
Felix didn’t always feel like he was living his dream. Sometimes, he just felt awful and overwhelmed and in desperate need of a break.__
Or: Lee Felix's slow spiral into drug addiction.